I’ve always tried to be the best I can be for you, always tried to be supportive and caring and understanding and everything in between. I’ve always tried to be everything you need and to be a good person for you.
and what I get is
"why is it so easy for you to always cut me out just like that, am I that insignificant to you?"
"no you just make it that way"
so apparently I say one thing that YOU take out of context and it’s ground for you to not want me in your life anymore
I bring up one topic for discussion and it’s something more than it is. I get frustrated and angry and sad that you havent answered any of my calls or texts when i’ve been trying all day and night and send you a text saying “fine, have a nice day” and that’s wrong me
i’m sorry I have emotions. i’m sorry I get sad and frustrated and angry when i’m feeling unappreciated and ignored.
but what saddens me the most to the utmost level is the fact that apparently I make it easy for you to not want me there anymore. So i say one thing that YOU take out of context, send a text or two because i’m being ignored and unappreciated and thats grounds for making it easy to drop me from your life but others can blatantly disrespect you and your entire family but you have no problem keeping that person in your life.
I feel defeated. Sad. Frustrated. But above all I feel like being a good person in this world is bullshit.
oh my gosh thank goodness for fall! October is my favorite month - halloween and the start of the crisp winter air!
My pupster :-P
I’d love to have this tree
My number by foals
My sorta kinda new fav catchy song that’s joined my phone music library
So i’ve been unempl. for about two months now and I had all these plans on things I wanted to accomplish while searching and so far i’ve gotten nothing done. Except buy a mac which had been on my list of things I want since I was like in middle school. No joke, well no i’d say since end of high school .. that sounds more right, since i’ve been interested in film making i’ve wanted one which totally makes sense
anyway, i’ve deviated. Besides that I havent done anything and it sometimes makes me wonder if that renders the past two months of my life as being insignificant. Its not like i’ve got a trust fund to live off of so you would think there would be plenty of incentive to get something going but I dont know…
A few days ago I texted a friend “if I want an empire I need to start building it now” and that’s true so why havent I? I need to. I need to stop being so devoted to things that are an uphill battle and start devoting more time to productive things.